Last summer we had a gecko who came to our bathroom window every night. I couldn't handle it. So, after a few months and it having ample opportunity to become big and fat, I decided to open and close the window a few times to shake it off. I shook it off, alright. And I think I killed it or at least mortally wounded it in the process.
Claude made me feel bad.
Okay, okay...so I felt bad all on my own.
I had lived my entire freshman year of college with a lizard at large in my shower. Did I feel differently about lizards way back then? No, I did not. They creeped me out like they do now. The difference was that I was willing to pretend that this little lizard did not exist. The lighting was dim in the shower and without my glasses I couldn't see well.
Ignorance is bliss, right?
Well, at least it meant protection for the small bug-eater.
Consequently, I never gave a thought as to what food source this lizard might have had which supported it for a year. Ewww....
I've often thought of this juxtaposition of responses. In one case, most recently, I had had enough of the creepy, crawly gecko and tried to stamp it out. But long ago, before being a mother had tested my patience, I let another lizard go. It wasn't hurting me. It didn't do anything wrong. It was better to pretend that it wasn't there and let it live then to try and snuff out its life.
How often do I respond with such grace to my children? Those little habits they have - ones that aren't harmful to themselves or anyone else and are simply annoying by the sheer fact that I can't get away from them...ever. Oh, and I can't forget about my own sin that makes these habits seem so frustrating - selfishness! I have preferences, 'ya know. And sometimes I prefer not to have five people whistling and singing at me all at once. Sometimes I prefer quiet.
What do I do with those preferences? Do I insist on having things my way and squashing my kids in the process like I injured the innocent gecko on our bathroom window? Or do I take my glasses off, turn down the lights, and let them go about the business of being kids?
I have resolved to do my best at tolerating both the lizards and my children's idiosyncrasies.
On the kid end, my resolve is tested daily. I don't often succeed, but I think I'm heading in the right direction. Thank You, Lord!
But things on the lizard front have been slow because we haven't had as many lizards this year. Over the past week, however, my lizard tolerance has been tested. Hannah found a baby gecko in our music area last week. It scurried under the piano pedals and we didn't find it. For several days it didn't show up.
After a handful of days we caught a glimpse of the gecko and just as quickly as it hid under the piano, it ran into the grating around our fire place.
I would be lying if I said that I wasn't on high lizard alert by this time.
I would be lying if I said that I wasn't on high lizard alert by this time.
Late last week I came into the house after Bible study and found Claude standing over a clear plastic container, a tiny lizard inside - its tail wriggling outside. Can you see why I can't handle these things? He had spotted it on the windowsill in the kitchen, stunned it with some bleach just to slow it down so that he could catch it, and he set it loose in the front yard.
We had caught the lizard at large. Or so we thought.
We had caught the lizard at large. Or so we thought.
Less than an hour ago, after a lovely nap, I walked into the kitchen to find another baby lizard. I sprayed it, caught it, and set it loose out front. Was it the same lizard from last week? The one that we assumed made its way from the fire place to the kitchen, hid all day, and only came out after bed time?
I don't think so. This guy had a full-length tail. I know they grow back and all, but in just a few days? I have my doubts.
My thought is that our gecko family has come back, somewhere in or very near our kitchen. And they are abounding in offspring. Sounds familiar, doesn't it? ;)
This leaves me with a couple of questions, however. Where is the musical lizard? And where are these baby lizards coming from?
Maybe it's better if I just close my eyes and sing a happy song. Ignorance is bliss, right???
You have a very entertaining way of writing! I enjoyed this post, as I have all the others, especially in regards to what you wrote about letting the children be children. With an 18 month old right now who can't talk but who does make all sorts of other sounds (sometimes annoying), I could totally relate. :) Anyway, I just wanted to thank you for your responses the other day and agree with you that it certainly IS a small world! I can't believe you happen to go to the same church as Joel and Katelyn! Wow! Who would have thought? :)
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